I can't believe it's already been six years! Although this blog has only been called Our Beautiful Mess for a short time, it has been part of the blog for a long time. Defying Gravity will always hold a special place in my heart but it was time for the change (read about it here). No matter what is has been called, it has been five years of blogging for me.
Like I say every year, my blog has changed a lot over the years. I love what it has turned into it but this has definitely been the hardest year of blogging.
More than just struggling to find topics and find words, I have put this pressure on myself to make this blog something more. But the truth is that I like it. I like what it's a mess of ideas and topics - it is how my brain has been working lately. I like that it's about my family - the good, the bad, the sleepless, and the crazy. I like that I write about food and decorating and my kids and my crazy cat and my crazy husband. I like that I don't write about big topics just to make it something more and get more pageviews. I like posting pictures and not just showing the bright and shiny side to things.
I used to write more freely than I do now. It's not that I have lost that honestly, but I think I just lost my passion to write about what I care about. I talked openly about fitness and my struggles with getting into shape and my goals. But now I keep it close to the chest. I talked about being a first time mom and the hardships in that. But I don't talk as openly about being a second time mom.
And I miss that. So here on my sixth anniversary of blogging I'm putting this out that I'm going to work on getting back to that place again. If I lose readers because they don't want to see How to Boil Water or Making the Cut or hearing stories about being a mom or seeing pictures, then I do. But at least I'm keeping true to myself and what I love. I started this blog and it has evolved naturally into what it is and I started feeling pressure to make it more and I didn't love it so much. So I'm hitting the reset button and I'm really excited about that. I'm excited to just write and be free with it and open and honest. I'm excited to just let this blog and continue with what I love.
I may not make my millions with this blog but at least I'm spending my time doing what I love and writing about what I love.
So here's to another year of Our Beautiful Mess.
xo, B
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