Bump to Baby: 12 Weeks

I am never actually seen a passion fruit in real life so truthfully I have no idea how big it is but apparently that's about your size right now. You weigh about a half an ounce and even crazier to think about is that you have more than doubled in size in the last three weeks. This is a big week for you because most of your systems are fully formed. Your digestive system is starting contraction movements. Your white blood cells is being made by your bone marrow. And your pituitary glands have started producing hormones. You still have a long way to go and your systems have a lot of maturing to do but you have already come so far!

This was another rough week. I have had a lot of throwing up again this week. It always seems to be at least twice a day. This pregnancy has been tough on me. You add on to that the headaches, the fact that I'm still fighting my sickness which means I'm not sleeping well, plus a continued struggle with food. It's been a long week. I have definitely been looking forward to the second trimester in hopes that things get better. I mean it's got to be better than getting a bout of morning sickness while at the zoo and having to throw up in a trash can. On the plus side I have a little bump going on. Sometimes it just looks like I ate a little too much for lunch but there are other times it very much looks like a little bump. It's just hard to believe I am so close to the second trimester already. It has definitely flown by.

I had a lot of anxiety going into this week. This was the week I went back in for my OB appointment where I would actually be able to hear the heartbeat on the doppler. All the craziness I was going through has been starting to feel like my new normal which then puts doubts into my mind that things were going okay with the baby. Rob was constantly reminding me that it was not normal and things were okay. But it was still hard to feel confident. Although I didn't feel any sort of dread at all. But the anxiety was hard to ignore. I was nervous about my appointment but also looking forward to it for my piece of mind that everything was okay. So with all my nerves, I went to my appointment. It was the only thing that we had to take care of (other than leaving a urine sample to check for proteins which is my least favorite part by far). She came in and asked me if I was nervous, but got right to it. She noted that I had a bit of a belly already started and that was a good thing. Then almost immediately we heard a little heartbeat. We were both thrilled. Then the baby moved which she noted was a good thing as well that the baby was already moving around in there. She found the heartbeat again and we listened to a nice strong heartbeat in the 150s. It was like I could breathe again. It felt amazing hearing that little heart beating in there and now knowing without a doubt that everything was okay with our little bug.

(Sunday, June 10 - Saturday, June 16)