A Pregnancy Story: 9 Weeks

You are now about an inch long, weight just a fraction of an ounce, making you the size of a grape. I

will probably repeat this over and over again, but you are now looking more like a human. That will continue to happen as you grow. We are now in our first week of our third month, which means we are almost done with our first trimester. Our big milestone this week is that you are a fetus, no longer an embryo. Your heart is now divided into four chambers with the valves starting to form. Your tail maybe completely gone, but other things are starting to develop, such as your teeth. However, we won't be able to tell if you are male or female for another couple of weeks even though your external sex organs are there. Although your eyelids will be fused shut until about 27 weeks, your eyes are fully formed. Your distinct facial features are developing, making your earlobes, mouth, nose and nostrils more distinct.

Last month of the first trimester! I'm feeling good about that. Unfortunately that's about the only way I have been feeling good lately. I truly thought this time around was much better than my first pregnancy but now I'm doubtful. I don't get sick every day but when I do I get sick twice a day. I really hate being sick but I try to remind myself that it is all worth it in the end. You are worth all these bad days.

Holy exhaustion batman! I remember feeling tired my first pregnancy but nothing compared to this. I truly forgot how draining making a human being could be. I still have my emotional ups and downs. A major moment for me this week has been stopping the progesterone. I have been really nervous about it. But I decided to trust that my body would take over producing progesterone and everything would be fine. My major problem this week is definitely my mood swings. My mood will change on a dime. I will be fine and happy one minute then the next I have a short fuse and easily frustrated. It makes for very long days sometimes when dealing with a toddler. But I'm making it through and doing the best I can. I'm napping a lot and taking a lot of deep breaths in an effort to calm myself when I get really frustrated. I'm just looking forward to feeling better again.

We decided to tell everyone our big secret after getting released to the OB and after having an awesome ultrasound at 8 week. It has been amazing to see everyone so supportive. I have been very open about our struggles and have wanted to open communication about secondary infertility and the heartache of miscarriages. It has been very hard for me sometimes to talk about it. Sometimes I found it easy to talk about it but hard to talk about it rationally because I was angry. But we knew we had a lot of people in our corner. We had a lot of people who supported us and hoped for our journey to have another baby to end happily. When we did announce I was overwhelmed by all the support and love.

(Saturday, August 1 - Friday, August 7)