Writer's Block

Yesterday afternoon/evening was a hard day which was after a couple of tough weeks. But for a brief time I had a few moments of complete peace. Of course I had a monitor playing music, my ears listening for another kid and occasionally getting up to put something in the oven for dinner. But I had peace. My almost 3-month old normally fights his late afternoon nap and gets a bit fussy but today he was sleeping. My 3 year old had completely dropped naps and seemed to only like the idea of quiet time and not so much the reality of it, but today she was sleeping. But normally one kid is always needing something. I have learned to accept that because that's just part of being a mom.

It was a tough day but somehow I still managed to get both kids down for a nap. I had laid the youngest down in the port-a-crib awake hoping he wouldn't scream until I got back while I dealt with something with the oldest. I then sent her to her room where I highly recommended she stayed and even nap. I headed back to the youngest who was almost asleep by that point and went to check on the oldest who was also asleep.

I found myself sitting in the sitting room in one of my favorite chairs, laptop on my lap, book next to me, and a long list of things I needed to do in my head. But as I sat there staring out the window I decided to take that opportunity to write. I had a rare moment of complete silence. I never get to write in complete silence. I had a moment where no one needed anything from me. I didn't have any distraction. This was my moment to write a masterpiece. Something that was going to change the world.

And yet I continued to stare at the blank blog post. I closed it and searched through drafts hoping I would find some inspiration. But I ended up back on the blank post again. I tried writing a few things, hopping something would stick but everything ended up being erased.

For weeks I had been hoping for a few moments of peace to write and here I finally had it and I had nothing.

So I finally decided to just start writing and stop trying so hard and see what I could come up with. And before long something started coming together. After the hubs got home and we were talking about our days, I told the hubs about the whole thing and his response: "So basically it's a post about how you have nothing to post about?"

And although I wanted this to be something more and maybe even inspirational, at the core of this it's just a post about how I had nothing to write about. I think it comes down to the fact that all the time my brain is always moving and always thinking and when I finally had a moment of complete peace with no distractions, my brain decided to shut down and take a little break too.

But hey it's Thursday, so it's almost the weekend and maybe I will be able to come up with that inspirational post for next week. Maybe...?

Comment below: What kind of content do you like seeing and want to see more of? Or what would you like to see that I may not have posted about before? Also, what are your tips for getting rid of writer's block?

xo, B